What Revenge Procrastination Looks Like To Me — It’s 10 pm. The kids are all asleep (in my bedroom). Their new favorite resting place is the Jiu-Jitsu mats (it’s pretty comfy). My wishful thinking was they would practice more. I feel tired, so I should also head to bed. That’s what I did last night. That is probably…

Where did he go? — I re-joined Medium last year to satiate my dependence on external validation. I made some friends, the only thing genuinely spiritual on the platform. I bared my soul like the new member of a clique going through initiation. …

At Least As Far As My Medium Comments Go — “As you can see, we’ve had our eye on you for some time now, Mr. Anderson. It seems that you’ve been living two lives. In one life, you’re Thomas A. Anderson, program writer for a respectable software company, you have a social security number, you pay your taxes, and you…

But Sometimes, It Feels Fragile And Useless — My relationship with my own body involves several layers. Some of these connections are obvious. E.g., pornography usage can increase body dysmorphia. Mainstream entertainment still relies heavily on sex appeal. Scrolling through Instagram will likely cause one to feel bad about their body too. Last time I focused on Function…

Minorities And Internalized Self Hatred — “Why do I judge her in a more critical light than any other, becoming enraged when she does not measure up?” — Audre Lorde “Who taught you to hate yourself from the top of your head to the soles of your feet?” — Malcolm X "That woman is misogynistic, that…

- Stephen King (everybody knows…) — I love to display my bookcase like an Instagram model crafting conveniently flattering poses. His physique is fabulous, but no one can flex that many muscle groups for extended periods. But isn’t it an eye candy? All therapists do it. I’m proud of my mind. I’ve put a lot of…

Every Ken Can Be Kenough! — I’ll try not to spoil it, but honestly, it’d be like spoiling Oppenheimer — “Hey, in case you didn’t know, the Manhattan Project was successful, and the bomb built by Oppenheimer devastated Hiroshima and Nagasaki instantly killing some 100k (including women and children), ultimately killing as many as 200k, which…

Trigger Warnings For Men With Fragile Egos — (may contain spoilers) Snowflake men, be warned. Look at your hero, Shapiro, burning dolls in protest. That’s how powerful a trigger can be to insecure men. I thought the Barbie movie would be about her breaking out of fantasy land. …

Every Day, Discoverin’ Something Brand New — Eternal truths are settling in slowly in my mid-thirties psyche. I feel I’m only starting to understand this important principle: My body is beautiful. My body is a miracle, a privilege, a temple, a sanctuary, a vessel, an opportunity, and a blessing. My body is beautiful. Two mindsets are helping…